Birth Chart Interpretation for
May 20, 1946
El Centro, California
Veraxs Int'l Inc.
3355 Bee Cave Road #606
Austin, TX 78746 USA
From an esoteric point of view your birth chart is a
portrait of your soul's intention for this lifetime, the lessons
to be learned, qualities to develop, problems to be resolved,
service to be rendered. From that perspective, the choices one
makes in one's daily life have reverberations that may last
beyond even this lifetime.
This report is written to help you clarify your lessons and
goals, illuminate your struggles, and encourage you to move in
the direction of your true purposes.
The best to you on your journey...
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Sun 29 Tau 28 Pluto 9 Leo 37
Moon 24 Cap 21 N. Node 22 Gem 03
Mercury 17 Tau 28 Asc. 10 Sag 23
Venus 26 Gem 22 MC 23 Vir 19
Mars 13 Leo 36 2nd cusp 12 Cap 17
Jupiter 18 Lib 21 3rd cusp 18 Aqu 00
Saturn 21 Can 11 5th cusp 23 Ari 38
Uranus 16 Gem 27 6th cusp 18 Tau 35
Neptune 6 Lib 02
Tropical Placidus Standard time observed
GMT: 03:25:00 Time Zone: 8 hours West
Lat. and Long. of birth: 32 N 47 31 115 W 33 44
Aspects and orbs:
Conjunction : 5 Deg 00 Min Trine : 4 Deg 00 Min
Opposition : 5 Deg 00 Min Sextile : 3 Deg 00 Min
Square : 4 Deg 00 Min Quincunx : 3 Deg 00 Min
Conjunct Asc : 3 Deg 00 Min Above, 5 Deg 00 Min Below
Chapter 1: The Moon
The placement of the Moon in your birth chart is very
significant from a karmic perspective, as it indicates the
accumulated karmic tendencies, both positive and negative, that
you carry from your past incarnated experiences on earth.
While the Sun reveals your intended purposes and lessons
for this present life cycle, the MOON represents what you have
already done and developed, hence, what is instinctive and
natural to you, and what you tend to do over and over again.
Your childhood is also reflected in the Moon's placement, as it
is through those childhood circumstances that any unresolved
past-life issues are re-stimulated. Your subconscious
predisposition is indicated by the Moon's position. It is the
psychic imprint of the past. The nodes of the Moon describe
behavior patterns from the past, as well as delineating a
direction out of outworn or overdone behaviors and habits.
Moon in Capricorn:
You instinctively respond to challenges or stress by
suppressing any emotions you have which might interfere with the
job at hand, and taking control of the situation in an
unsentimental, no-nonsense sort of way. You may become super
responsible or throw yourself into your work - anything to keep
feelings of helplessness or other "unacceptable" emotions at
bay. "Don't agonize - organize!" is your motto.
Early in life, and in previous lifetimes, you learned
through circumstances not to expect others to take care of you,
to rely on yourself emotionally, and to stifle or neglect your
own needs for care and comfort, in order to survive. As a
result you developed a certain toughness and a disinclination to
trust, an underlying cynicism, which can interfere with your
ability to establish emotional rapport and intimacy with people.
You want proof of another's love or good will, some tangible
evidence of their loyalty and commitment and you may "test" your
friends or lover over a long period of time before you surrender
your defenses and allow yourself to be truly close to them. Or
you may care very much but, because your emotional self-control
is so deeply ingrained, may be unable to communicate and express
it openly, directly, warmly, with feeling. You may substitute
symbols of affection, gifts, or even money, for the real thing
(being with the person, touching, listening, sharing your
feelings.) You fear dependency, and may be intolerant of others'
lack of discipline, emotional self-indulgence or neediness, and
"babyish" behavior in anyone, even little children. You were
not allowed those sorts of feelings, either because of life
circumstances or due to a rather critical, strict, authoritarian
upbringing. For whatever reason you absorbed the message that
"life is a struggle", "no one is going to take care of me", and
possibly "I don't deserve to have my needs fulfilled". Very
likely the approval and love you received were not
unconditional, but contingent upon proper behavior, achievement,
or being responsible and not being a burden. It may be hard for
you to remember a time in your life when you were truly a child,
carefree and innocent.
Due to these subconscious imprints and beliefs about
yourself, you could experience a sort of chronic, low-grade
depression, and a tendency toward pessimism and negativity. You
may feel a compulsion to achieve in a material sense, in order
to feel good about yourself. Or, you may be comfortable in the
role of protector and provider, offering stability and security
to others, but (once again) neglecting your own needs to do so.
You can socially endure and forbear for long periods of
time in rather meager or difficult circumstances, due to past
experiences of deprivation and hardship. This may work to your
benefit, for instance, in the pursuit of some academic or
professional goal, or in any endeavor that requires denial of
immediate gratification for the sake of a long-range objective.
In your emotional and personal life, too, you are willing to
hang in there through the hard times. However, sometimes you
will stay with something or someone because you are used to
subsisting on very little nourishment (emotional or otherwise)
and you cannot envision or accept the possibility of anything
better for yourself. Security is extremely important to you and
you are willing to sacrifice or forego much in order to maintain
it. A great fear of poverty and emotional or material lack
underlies this even if you have never really experienced such in
your present lifetime. Memories of such lack from your
incarnational past are likely to continue to influence you,
unless you consciously change or "re-program" yourself (splurge
a little, challenge those old patterns). Along those same
lines, an overconcern with your reputation and public standing,
proper form, adhering to certain societal rules and standards,
having approval from the "right" people, ritualized etiquette,
and so on, is deeply embedded in you. You have learned to bow
down to authority, and to achieve a measure of security in
return. Most likely, you expect others to do the same. You can
be emotionally dry, seemingly unfeeling or detached, and, when
pushed to the extreme, a very controlling disciplinarian.
You would benefit from learning to relax, not to carry the
weight of the world on your shoulders, and that life is not all
struggle, all duty, all work.
Moon Opposition Saturn:
You are bringing into your current lifetime subconscious
memories of harsh discipline, emotional deprivation, separations
from family and other sources of security, which prevented you
from being properly nourished and cared for. You may be
responding to these experiences in different ways, for instance,
you may need tremendous amounts of reassurance and supportive
love from the people around you in order to feel that you can
trust them. You may cling to family, traditions, routines, and
structures. You may have persistent underlying feelings of
sadness or loss without recognizing their source. You may
concentrate on your work and practical responsibilities (to
neglect your emotions and personal life). You may isolate
yourself and feel alone, or refuse to be alone, becoming fearful
and anxious without others nearby. You may be needy and
insecure about your worth, or hide all of your needs for love
and affirmation behind a mask of cool indifference. On a
physical level, you may have an extremely sensitive stomach,
poor digestion, and an inability to take certain foods.
Much of this is based on your subconscious belief that
whatever occurred in the past was your fault (even though you
may have been innocent), and that love, security, and comfort
are scarce commodities which can be withdrawn from you at any
time. In this lifetime you will be working with these patterns,
learning to nurture and care for yourself. There may be periods
of aloneness and singularity which instead of being lonely and
isolated can be healing, giving you time to do quiet,
contemplative activities that nourish you.
These strict disciplines you were burdened with in the past
need to be balanced with gentleness. You are much too hard on
yourself, and you tend to see criticism and blame where none is
intended. Above all, self-acceptance and cherishing yourself,
regardless of your flaws or supposed past errors, is a major
lesson in this current cycle.
Moon Quincunx Venus:
You have a great capacity for and one might even say
craving for tenderness, devoted love, family belonging, and the
sweetness of shared domesticity. Your marriage and your
children may well be the focus in your life, but this arena is
not apt to be completely harmonious. You have conflicting urges
when it comes to satisfying your erotic love feelings. What you
want and what gives you pleasure in love may be at odds with
what makes you comfortable or secure. Your ability to give and
receive love freely may be inhibited by messages you received or
experiences you had in childhood, or you may feel conflicting
loyalties between your parents and family of origin verses your
mate or lover. Or, perhaps, your identification with your role
as parent interferes with your lover-relationship with your
spouse. Along with this is a tendency to become overly "close"
and dependent on family. On another level, you are apt to have
a lazy, pleasure-loving side that enjoys being pampered and is
disinclined to real effort and self-discipline.
A habit of doing things the easy way, and a certain passive
desire to be taken care of, may develop. Also, quite possible
is an addiction to sweets, and thus an ongoing weight problem.
North Node in Gemini:
In your incarnational past you were devoted to ideals and
principles and high-mended pursuits. Now your growth direction
is to laugh and see the humor in it all, as well as to apply
your wisdom in ordinary day to day interactions.
North Node in 7th house:
Your past tendency is so natural to you, so much a part of
how you are, that you probably do not think twice. Let others
help bring out your new attitude or growth direction; be willing
to be a learner. Selfishness and a deeply rooted "me first"
attitude needs to give way to a consciousness of "us" and/or
what you can do with or for the other.
Chapter 2: The Sun
The Sun in your birth chart represents the primary creative
thrust for this lifetime, those qualities you are to develop (or
further develop) and express, and your current life focus. This
may be in harmony with your instincts and your emotional habits,
or along completely different lines. The Sun represents your
conscious identity in this lifetime.
Sun in Taurus:
Your soul development in this lifetime involves fully
immersing yourself in matter, the physical world, and your
senses. The ramifications of this are many.
First of all, you very much enjoy the fruits of the earth
in a simple, uncomplicated way. You have a deep rapport with
nature and its rhythms, and if you cannot live in the country,
you need at least to have a view of some natural beauty or to be
surrounded with living or growing things. You have a strong
affinity for plants. Regular contact with the land, forests,
mountains, or your garden restores you, and without it you lose
your center and your peace. When you are at your best, you
function like a healthy animal, following what your instincts
and your senses tell you. Your well known stubbornness and
resistance to change is in part a reflection of your strong need
to follow your own instincts and proceed at your own natural
pace. As a wise one once phrased it "A soul must never be
pushed or driven, but allowed to unfold naturally, like a flower
blossoming bit by bit in the sunshine". This sense of a natural
unfolding process underlies your tendency to be both steadily
patient and very obstinate when faced with the need to make
sudden moves or adapt to changes. Furthermore, your
contribution in life has to do with building (solid foundations,
assets, structures) and continuing, sustaining, and preserving
what has already been attained (thus, your disinclination to
embrace innovation or change).
Your willfulness, which is quite strong, has the qualities
of the earth itself - heavy, immovable, dense, enduring, and
constant - and in terms of character or soul development this
may work for or against you. You are not easily impacted or
influenced by others, and you tend to ignore subtle hints and
clues that you are not on the right track. Thus, you will
persist in an endeavor until you are shown in some very gross,
unmistakable way that you cannot or should not. In this way,
you can make some egregious errors, carving deep grooves or
patterns which are very hard to change.
Positively, of course, this same tenacity enables you to
accomplish your desires through sheer persistence and stamina.
You can be a stabilizing, grounding force for the people around
you, which is part of your soul-purpose.
Your earthiness also indicates that you are attuned to that
which is tangible, material, solid, substantial, real and
present. You tend to distrust or discount what is intangible or
abstract. Unless you see physical evidence, concrete facts, or
"proof", you are unlikely to believe something is possible, and
you give little credence to some speculative idea which has no
concrete application or actual usefulness. A desire to own land
or to have solid financial assets and to insure that your basic
material needs are well taken care of, is another aspect of this
basic earthiness. The mundane world - money, work, taking care
of and enjoying the physical body - is your arena.
You are very body oriented, and you respond very much to
physical appearances, to physical beauty and to the sensual
aspect of things (how it looks, feels, smells, tastes). The
benefit of this is simply that you fully enjoy your sensuality
and your creaturehood. You have a great capacity for
contentment, for enjoying things as they are, and for partaking
in the pleasures which are all around you and readily available.
However, you may spend inordinate amounts of time and energy on
your body, dealing with your appetites and desires for material
comfort, security, and pleasure. Enjoying but not being
completely dominated by your appetites and desires is the key
here. You also need to beware of being taken in by superficial,
outer appearances, and thus missing the deeper aspects of a
person or situation.
Chapter 3: Rising Sign
The point that was on the eastern horizon at the moment of
your birth is called the ASCENDANT, or rising sign. While the
Sun describes your conscious direction and current life focus,
and the Moon your subconscious predisposition and past, the
Ascendant indicates a way of being that transcends and embraces
past, present, and future. It describes the way you engage and
merge with the outer world and how you bring through into life
the energies depicted by the Sun, the Moon, and the rest of your
birth chart. Everything is filtered through the Ascendant from
an esoteric point of view. It indicates your soul's function
and thus a key part of your destiny.
Faith, belief and the ability to foresee and envision the
future or "what could be" are essential elements of your soul
function. You may well be ahead of your time or at the fore
front of coming trends and movements in the collective. You are
a seeker, one who searches for the overview, the larger pattern,
or a broad, over-arching philosophy of life - and also a teacher
who conveys that vision or broadcasts it in some way. Your
ruling planet is Jupiter.
Sagittarius Rising and Jupiter in Libra:
Your Jupiter in Libra suggests that your role is to promote
your ideals of harmony, peacemaking, cooperation, true
friendship, and understanding between people. You may do this
formally (through, say interpersonal mediation or international
good will programs) or simply in your one-to-one interactions as
you go through your daily life.
Chapter 4: Saturn, Your Achilles Heel
Karmically considered, the placement of Saturn in your
birth chart indicates where your energetic blockages, weaknesses
and fears lie, and the areas of your life where the most
concentrated effort and discipline will be required to master
and overcome them. Yet it also points to the aspects of life
which can become your greatest strength if you are willing to
face your fears and difficulties honestly, and work with them
Saturn in Cancer
You have great fears of being vulnerable and needy, of
being hurt or rejected, of letting others see the dependent,
childlike, tender, feeling side of yourself. You may stifle
these feelings and put on an armor of detachment or stoicism,
shouldering everyone else's burdens and responsibilities but
never letting on that you would like to be taken care of
Although you crave acceptance and a feeling of belonging,
you may distance yourself from the very people who might
genuinely care for you (whenever they get too close) or you may
deny altogether your needs for human connection and intimacy.
You feel awkward and clumsy expressing tenderness or anything
resembling sentimentality, and may feel quite aloof from your
family (as well as the softer side of your own nature). On the
other hand, you may cling tenaciously to your home and family as
a base of security, and depend on them excessively or need
constant reassurance from them. An inordinate emphasis on
loyalty and responsibility in personal relationships (on your
part) may stem from a basic insecurity and a fear of being
deserted. At worst you may be terrified of anything unfamiliar.
A karmic tie to your mother, a strong sense of indebtedness
and/or guilt, or the deep feeling that something was missing in
your relationship to her is also indicated. Lessons regarding
parenting, and giving and receiving nurturance, are crucial for
you in this lifetime.
Saturn in 8th house:
You have a tendency to protectively withhold yourself and
to not give your all. Thus you experience much frustration
either sexually, financially, or both. The possibility of a
merger (whether on a deep psychic, emotional level, or even in a
material way) brings up some of your greatest fears. Sexual
politics and issues of personal power and control (all involving
an inability to surrender) are apt to be at work behind the
scenes. Taking on a karmic debt through your partner or being
burdened financially or otherwise by him or her is also
possibility. Confronting your fears of giving everything,
opening yourself completely and letting go come through these
A fear of not being in control may well be the root of many
of your protective, defensive, and ultimately self-defeating
behavior which you play out in your intimate relationships.
Also, a deep concern with death and mortality is evident.
Learning to to let go, to surrender with grace and ease, to die,
based on a basic trust in life may be your greatest challenge.
Saturn Square Jupiter:
In this lifetime any tendency you have had toward over
expansion or overblown aspirations is checked. Your mobility and
freedom may be severely limited in some way, perhap due to
fluctuating financial circumstances, physical ailments, or
unalterable personal commitments. Many ups and downs will test
Your big challenge is to recognize and accept boundaries
and limitations, while working in regular, consistent ways
toward improving your life or position. Developing patience and
contentment with the process is important, otherwise you are apt
to swing high and low, and to lose faith and confidence. An
attitude of "voluntary simplicity" can be helpful.
Chapter 5: The Hard Aspects
The following is a description of your MAJOR LIFE
CHALLENGES, both in terms of energies you are to learn to
develop and express in a positive way, and those which are the
result of struggles and unresolved karmic issues which you have
brought into this life.
Mercury Square Mars:
One of your challenges in this lifetime is to learn to use
your sharp intellect and quick tongue in ways that are
constructive and beneficial to you and those around you. At
your worst you can be verbally abusive, overpowering others with
your intellectual arguments or criticism, and create enormous
animosity and ill will in the process. Try not to bark orders
or command or be so quick to turn all of you encounters into an
opportunity to prove yourself right. You may thus gain a
reputation for being pushy and quarrelsome which certainly will
not work in your favor. The hard-shell approach generally back
Certainly there are some arenas where a clear, sharp
intellect and the ability to state your opinions forcefully are
an asset, courtroom law, for instance, or in certain academic
climates and pursuits. Confrontation, self-assertion, and
expressing anger does have its place, but when you are out of
balance with this energy you can experience severe headaches,
accident proneness (especially those involving travel, sharp
instruments or breaking glass), nervous tension, and, as implied
above, discordant relations with people.
It would be helpful for you to learn and regularly practice
deep breathing and relaxation techniques to calm your nervous
system. Wearing or carrying certain gemstones may facilitate
this also, such as rose quartz, jade, emerald, peridot, or
chryroprase. More than anything, however, awareness is the key.
Rather than blaming the outside world for things that irritate
you, look instead at your own penchant to be argumentative and
irritated. If you can harmonize this aspect of your nature, you
will evolve a brilliance and clarity of mind, along with the
energy and decisiveness to act on your creative ideas.
Mercury Quincunx Jupiter:
Forging a link between your conscious intellect and your
super-conscious or higher mind is a major focus for you in this
This may be felt initially in a number of ways: an urge to
expand mental horizons and absorb as much knowledge as possible
through broad study or world travel, an attraction to spiritual
philosophy, or simply as mental restlessness and dissatisfaction
with the mundane details of life. What you are seeking is to
see the larger pattern, an overview which gives both an
integrated understanding and meaning to one's experiences. This
cannot be apprehended solely through the conscious intellect,
but comes through the capacity to intuit and make connections
and see patterns. This desire to see the big picture sometimes
translates as a certain sloppiness or imprecision in your
thinking. The broad brush strokes are often enough for you.
Also, you quickly grasp the overall idea or concept and do not
want to get bogged down with the particulars.
You tend to focus on what is possible (the limitlessness of
potential) rather than what already is. Optimistic and
open-minded, you see reasons why things could happen rather than
why they cannot. The development of this kind of faith and the
belief in things not yet realized is also an aspect of your
linking your conscious mind to your higher mind.
The ability and the calling to communicate truth is a part
of this energy pattern as well. When out of balance you can be
preachy, exaggerate what you know, or think you know it all.
Channeled positively and productively, you could evolve into a
teacher who brings parts of the world together. Long distance
communication and journeys (both in the physical, outer world
and in the inner realms) are part of this aspect. At your
finest with this particular pattern, you will act as a mediator
or bridge between different places or realms.
Mars Conjunct Pluto:
In this lifetime you must confront the nature of power, and
you have the opportunity to transform your relationship to
power, clear away deep-seated anger and resentment, and release
karmic patterns of perpetrator/victim.
If, in your past, you have been the victim of aggression,
ruthless force, or misdirected male energy - you may
subconsciously fear or even hate men, have great mistrust of
people in power or experience problems in sexual relationships
(the arena where power/fear dynamics are often most apparent).
In addition, you are prone to self-repression, either of anger
or of your own strength. If you have very little energy,
consider yourself a weak person, or become extremely
uncomfortable when others express any anger, you may be holding
down a great deal of hostility. Or, you may be angry all of the
time "for no reason". The question of appropriate expression of
these intense energies is a delicate one. While repressing them
can wreak havoc on your health and sense of well-being, you do
not want to unload the deep rage of centuries on innocent
people. You may hold your anger or aggression back not only
because you fear repercussions (you may have been bludgeoned to
a pulp in the past), but also because you sense that whatever is
triggering your emotions in the present is not the real problem.
In a word, you overreact. (Wanting to kill someone because they
forgot to walk the dog is an overreaction).
On the other hand, you may carry an immense burden of guilt
because you have been the one who misused your power, strength
and/or sexual energies in the past.
Another way you may be expressing this energy is to be
intensely and compulsively competitive, acting as if each and
every event is a mighty struggle for supremacy, a contest with
life or death consequences that you MUST WIN at all costs. You
may become compulsively active and productive and driven to
"succeed" at all costs. This type of thinking and being creates
great stress on your physical, emotional, and spiritual bodies.
Very likely it will also have a negative impact on all of your
relationships. You will make a lot of enemies and actually
force people to turn against you and bring you to your knees.
Ruthlessness attracts ruthlessness.
Coming into balance with all of this is a major challenge.
Finding a safe place to explore your war-like, destructive, and
sadistic self can help. Another key is becoming sufficiently
detached so that you can feel and acknowledge all of these
energies, and choose when and how to express them without being
"taken over" by them. If you are willing to become conscious,
you can actually become a great force for good, and can heal and
release some very deep wounds you have carried for a long time.
Jupiter is Retrograde:
Moral concerns (including lingering unresolved issues
stemming from a prior lifetime or lifetimes in which you
exercised poor judgment in moral, ethical, or religious matters)
come into play here. Thus, it is especially important for you
to maintain high standards while pursuing your aspirations.
Neptune is Retrograde:
The above is complicated by the fact that you had a prior
lifetime or lifetimes in which you dissipated your energy, fell
away from your disciplines, or were too passive or irresolute to
go after the spiritual opportunities open to you at that time.
This carries over as a vague yet persistent inner nagging that
you should be further on than you are, or a fear of spiritual
failure. You may also have been involved in mystical or magical
practices that created distortions in your life. It is
important for you to take a balanced, patient, well-grounded
attitude toward life - nothing too otherworldly, ethereal, or
glamourous. Indulging in any mood-altering substances is
particularly deleterious for you.
Venus Conjunct North Node:
Your growth direction also includes becoming more loving,
more sociable, more aware of creating harmonious and beautiful
relationships. Follow where your affection and your sense of
beauty lead you. Lovers and friends will aid you considerably
in fulfilling your growth direction.
Chapter 6: Soft Aspects
The following is a description of your GIFTS and STRENGTHS
which can help you work with your major life challenges. These
are abilities and qualities of heart, mind, and soul which are
quite natural to you. You probably take them for granted.
Because these represent the lines of least resistance for you,
you may rely too much upon them at times; hence, there are some
cautions suggested. Still, these are the areas where good flows
into your life and/or where you have considerable inner
Mars Sextile Uranus:
In previous incarnational experiences you have been a
revolutionary, a freedom fighter or engaged in activities that
required considerable audacity, courage, and willingness to
forego conventionality. Because of this you may be somewhat
addicted to high-intensity excitement.
On the positive side, you are unusually capable of handling
all sorts of challenges and emergencies. You act quickly and
decisively in response to a crisis, and can take up the sword
and execute drastic measures if necessary. You are at your best
in moments of danger, and may gravitate toward or unconsciously
seek them out. While it is likely that you have moderated the
intense willfulness and inability to cope with any sort of
restrictions, you still need to be blazing new trails. This in
fact is one of your gifts, as is your high level of vital
Jupiter Trine Uranus:
Through your openness, optimism, enthusiasm for adventure
or new ideas, and your willingness to go out on a limb and do
something unusual or risky, blessings flow into your life. In
your willingness to follow your inspiration, to pay attention to
uncanny coincidences and synchronistic events, you attune to a
higher order and magnetize good fortune. You also have a
fortunate sense of timing, and what others may see as your "good
luck" is at least partly your knowing when to say yes to an
opportunity. In fact, your positive expectations help create
such opportunities. Sharing joy, fun, laughter, and playfulness
is also one of the ways you give birth to the new in your life.
Discovery and benefits through travel is also indicated.